some good things i've goin' on in my life right now...
-had an awesome interview yesterday. i really want the job.
-i'm officially an iowa state alum.
-i'm going home this weekend.
-my boyfriend is an incredible disc golfer.
-my cat got her butt shaved (okay, that's not really a good thing, but it made me laugh).
-i'm preparing to get a cat of my very own.
-my last day of working at the call center is may 29 (ok, kinda sad about that, BUT i get a couple weeks of summer vacay).
-i get my new car this weekend! it's my dad's work car... 2008 chevy impala, fully loaded with a V8... i can't even freakin' wait!
-it's the summer time, and there shouldn't be any reason not to be happy right now! woot!

epiphany.

i just got done reading 'a million little pieces' by james frey and it made me have an epiphany. everyday we are faced with choices, countless choices. but the fact is that we make those choices, no one else does that for us. what i have come to learn is that i am the only one accountable for the choices that i make, healthy or unhealthy, right or wrong. they are my choices. i am the way i am because of the choices i've made. i do not blame genetics, or that i am predisposed, or that someone pushed me to do it because of their actions. anything that i put into my body, i choose to put into it. there is nothing inside of me that is making me put that hamburger in my mouth, i chose to do it. this is what i have learned. i am in control of who i am, and i am the way i am because i choose to be. it is about time that i realize this. stop blaming others and start holding myself accountable. i want to be healthy. i want to be thin. and everyday i have to remember that i choose what goes into my body. i have the choice to work out, or stay at home in my bed eating and watching t.v. the choice is mine, and mine alone.