this song could quite possibly be 'my song'

"There are faces, there are smiles, so many teeth, too many arms and legs
And eyes and flashing buttons all around me
I'm a-watching, I'm a-breathing, I'm a-pushing, I'm a-wishing
That these walls would not be talking quite so loudly
I have bent down once before I've pulled myself up from the floor
And I am looking for a reason to stay standing
But sometimes it's just too much it's not enough it's something else
It's so much bigger than my head, it's too demanding

Sometimes the fastest way to get there is to go slow
And sometimes if you wanna hold on you got to let go

I'm gonna close my eyes
And count to ten
I'm gonna close my eyes
And when I open them again
Everything will make sense to me then

I have met so many people, we've exchanged so many words
We've said it all and we've said nothing but it's changed us
I have known a lot of men, some were lovers, some were friends
But all together were they merely passing strangers?
They'll control you with their silence, they'll control you with their words
And you'll control them with your body's coded signals
In the wild, entangled gardens of our insecurities
We lose our heads into eachother's hidden pitfalls

Sometimes the fastest way to get there is to go slow
And sometimes if you wanna hold on you got to let go

I'm gonna close my eyes
And count to ten
I'm gonna close my eyes
And when I open them again
Everything will make sense to me then

1-2-3-4-5-6-7-8-9-ten..." - Tina Dico

i. am. a . nervous. wreck.

if i get the job, i will hear back from pioneer either today or tomorrow. i think i'm on the verge of an all out panic attack. and i'm pretty sure my phone battery will die by me just checking my phone alone ALL day. seriously, i check it like every minute... even though it's on vibrate...

i'm headin' on down to the dirty south...

so i'll be heading down to new orleans on thursday. i can't even wait. this is my second time flying, and i'll be alone. kind of nerve racking, but i think i'll be okay. this will also be my second time outside of the midwest (and hopefully it will be my first time seeing the ocean!). this trip is making me realize what a loser i am, ha ha ha. i really need to start traveling more often, lets start with baby steps though!

i do what i want...

Using only song titles from one artist, answer these questions:

Pick a band/artist: the beatles

1. Are you a male or female: girl

2. Describe yourself: helter skelter

3. How do you feel about yourself: don't ever change

4. Describe your ex boyfriend/girlfriend: nowhere man

5. Describe your current boy/girl situation: something

6. Describe your current location: only a northern song

7. Describe where you want to be: Big Casino

8. Your best friend is: paperback writer

9. Your favorite color is: yellow submarine

10. You know: yesterday

11. What's the weather like: good day sunshine

12. If your life was a television show what would it be called?: everybody's got something to hide except me and my monkey

13. What is life to you?: strawberry fields forever

14. What is the best advice you have to give: let it be

15. If you could change your name what would you change it to: penny lane

how do you justify being a dick to me?

the passion is gone from your voice.


things aren't good. i'm horribly depressed. but i'm such a huge pussy, and apparently a masochist. go me.

it's a great day to be alive

it's inaugeration day and i couldn't be any happier. there are still haters, but you can't get me down today. i believe in hope, and that's all that matters.